Monday, April 26, 2021

When a Creative is Dogged by Doubt


by Ane Mulligan @AneMulligan 

An engineer doesn’t doubt her calling. She’s a left-brained mathematician with a formula for every situation.

 

A fisherman doesn’t doubt his calling. He’s a left-brained strategist who can outsmart any fish.

 

A company CFO doesn’t doubt her calling. She has left-brained-focus on the bottom line.

 

But creatives, right-brained as all get out, are dogged by doubts. 

 

Is my work good enough? Will everyone hate it? Has the well run dry? Are all my ideas merely repeats of what I’ve already done? How did I do it last time? Am I really called to do this?

 

My name is Ane Mulligan, and I have another passion besides writing.

 

Oh, pick up your jaw. It’s not a secret to anyone who knows me. I’m managing director of a theatre company. Theatre is in my blood just like stories are in my head, and both are in my heart.

 

A problem arises

The problem arises when one passion’s screaming demands are louder than the other. It doesn’t matter what that passion is. It can be family, especially when our children are young. Softball, swarm soccer, parent-teacher conferences. Your day job. They pull at a writer. 

 

Then, you hit a wall in your current work in progress. Doubts raise their ugly heads. After all, a real writer doesn’t get writer’s block. A real writer can write through anything. Maybe you’re done. Is it time to quit? I’ve been plagued with all these and more in the years I’ve been writing. 

 

During one particularly trying manuscript, we held auditions for a new show I was to direct. I was excited about it, and the busyness of planning and directing (and writing a few short bits to ease scenes transitions) stole my creativity and focus. 

 

Doubt crept in once more. Is writing my will for me or God’s? I couldn’t imagine quitting Theatre. Is it truly time to quit writing? If so, then so be it. 

 

Yet, I cringed at that thought. I didn’t want to quit either one. I prayed and decided I’d leave it at His feet.

 

I turned my attention to the theatre and all the shows for that year. I was producing all, directing one, and set dresser on another, all while managing the non-profit business side. Maybe that’s enough for one person.

 

Then it happened. 

As my husband and I chatted about his upcoming choir concert, suddenly in the midst of that conversation, the one piece I hadn’t consciously realized I’d missed exploded in my mind, sparking creativity in a great, big, wonderful visual of motivation ... for my character and for me. 

 

I love it when God shows up.  

 

Creatives will always be plagued by doubts. That’s part of it. It’s built into our DNA. We can’t escape it. So, what do we do? Panic and down copious pots of coffee and six pounds of chocolate?

 

No. Well, yes to the coffee and chocolate. But learn to embrace the doubts. Take them to God. He’s big enough to handle them. Then wait. Don’t try to force anything. Wait. 

 

Take a day trip. Grab your camera and go take photos somewhere peaceful. Read a book. Cook a new recipe. Go shopping. 

 

In some part of your brain, you’re thinking about your work in progress. So wait. Don’t stress God will show up. After all, you’re a writer ... called to write. 

 

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When a Creative is Dogged by Doubt - encouragement from @AneMulligan on @EdieMelson (Click to Tweet)


Ane Mulligan has been a voracious reader ever since her mom instilled within her a love of reading at age three, escaping into worlds otherwise unknown. But when Ane saw PETER PAN on stage, she was struck with a fever from which she never recovered—stage fever. She submerged herself in drama through high school and college. One day, her two loves collided, and a bestselling, award-winning novelist emerged. She lives in Sugar Hill, GA, with her artist husband and a rascally Rottweiler. Find Ane on her website, Amazon Author page, Facebook, Twitter, Instagram, Pinterest and The Write Conversation.

14 comments:

  1. If you want to be truly confused, try living life using both hemispheres of your brain. LOL Some days, I don't know if I'm carry an empty leash or have lost Bubba the dog! :-) Thank you for all your encouragement Ms. Ane.

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    1. Okay, now I'm laughing! I like to think my brain's left side actually works, but it's pitifully overshadowed by the right side.

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  2. Great advice, Ane. And delivered with humor and flair. Sometimes it just takes patience. I hate that.

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    1. Thanks, Tim. Patience ... that word should be 4 letters. lol

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  3. Thanks so much for the advice! I really like the idea of accepting doubts as part of the process instead of thinking there's something wrong with me.

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    1. You're so welcome! That's why it's important for us to hang out together instead of with "normals." That way, we remember WHO we are and WHY we're they way we are. :o)

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  4. I love this Ane, and I needed to hear this today. I love how God puts the pieces together and allows us to show the world.

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    1. I'm so glad it helped you, Penny! I love how the Lord nudges us to write something on a certain day.

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  5. Knowing that all writers go through periods of doubt and frustration is a comfort and an inspiration to keep going. Thanks!

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    1. You're welcome, Kay! I know it sure helped me when I finally realized it was "normal" for a writer.

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  6. Love the picture of the dog. Some days I feel just like he looks. :)

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    1. The photo was from Edie Melson. I love it too! Thanks, Edie.

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  7. That right brain is mighty powerful, thanks be to God! Thanks for an encouraging message!

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