And my God will supply all your needs,
according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:19
When
our son joined the Marine Corps, I had to face every parent’s biggest fear,
that one of my children might die. I knew he’d face deployment in the Middle
East—that was why he’d joined—and that I couldn’t keep him safe. This was
tough, because keeping him (along with my other two sons) safe had been my goal
for a long time. And all things counted, I hadn’t done too bad a job of it.
But facing
his deployment made me examine my belief that I’d spent the last 18 years
keeping him safe. Could I really claim that? I’d given him the tools to make
wise decisions, and I’d been around to prevent some mishaps, but not many. Had
I truly equipped him to face what was ahead?
That
night, while I wrestled with this fear, I realized my thoughts were just another
attempt at control. I’d equipped . . .
I’d given . . . I’d prevented. In reality, I hadn’t been the one to equip,
give or prevent. God had. Oh, He’d allowed me to help on occasion, but He’d
been the one who’d orchestrated events to prepare my son for life. It was a
good thing, too. I had no idea where my son’s life was headed. I could make
some guesses, but so far my track record wasn’t good. But God’s track record
was perfect.
So glad for the peace God has given you, Edie. Thank you for sharing your thoughts so that those of us in similar situations can find comfort.
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