by Sarah Van Diest @SarahVanDiest
Educated as a teacher, Sarah taught school for nearly 20 years. As a young woman, she lived in China amid the rice paddies and water buffalo near Changsha, and then later taught English in Costa Rica for four years and raised her two sons.
I want to
write to encourage you today, if today is a hard one for you. I would love to
lift the gaze of your eyes from downward, focused on your path, to upward so
you can see the Father’s smile as He looks at you.—So that whatever weight you
carry will feel lighter, and so your heart will know the sweet sensation of
rest and freedom.
But today
I feel unfit for the task.
This
season has been hard on our little family, and though I know our Father is
faithful—has always been faithful—I am tired. Circumstances have acted like the
shaking of a sieve where many of the unnecessaries
of life have fallen through the holes. We live each day now focused mainly on
the essentials.
There is
beauty in this simplicity, where life is cherished and relationships held dear.
Distractions from what truly matters are minimal. But there is also a dryness.
The added flavor of the extra is
missing and missed. Being stripped down can leave one feeling cold. Being
pulled in every direction can leave one feeling thin. I feel cold. I feel thin.
I want to
be exceptional at encouraging, but I fear I am exceptional at sorrowing.
Feeling the pain of life comes so naturally, easily. Joy so often seems to
choose another’s heart to light upon, though I figure I’m only imagining this,
being overly dramatic.
If
depression is what this is, then I would say depression is like being suspended
in a dense, heavy liquid where movement is slow and taxing, almost impossible,
and where outside forces have little to no impact. Do you relate to what I am describing? Have you been here before? Are
you here now?
So where
does one go from here? Circumstances will change, eventually, and what feels
overwhelming today will have moved on and behind. The path keeps going. I can
see up ahead that there are turns, hills and valleys, I just don’t know what
the weather will be like when we get there. Ha! I suppose that’s okay.
Today,
then. What about today? What about right now, this moment, when my heart is
heavy and I am disappointed because I do not feel able to shine light onto your
life? What do I do?
All I can
think to do is to stop trying. It’s not me anyway, right? I’m not the one on whom
you rely for good cheer or for hope or for light in the darkness. No, and heaven
forbid. Your strength, just like mine, comes from the Father of all. He is our
hope. He is our joy. He is our way through.
So let it be His voice we lean in to hear
today:
“Come to
me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke
upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will
find rest for your souls.” Matthew 11:28-29
“It is the
LORD who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake
you. Do not fear or be dismayed.” Deuteronomy 31:8
“Fear not,
for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God; I will strengthen you, I
will help you, I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10
Are you
feeling suspended today, held almost motionless in a denseness you cannot break
free from? I hope you find encouragement wherever the Father puts it, for I
believe He will put it in your line of sight. It will be there. He is the giver
of all good gifts, faithful to remember us. Let us put our hope in Him today!
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Educated as a teacher, Sarah taught school for nearly 20 years. As a young woman, she lived in China amid the rice paddies and water buffalo near Changsha, and then later taught English in Costa Rica for four years and raised her two sons.
Sarah is married for the second time, the mother of 2 boys and the step-mother to 3 more. She and her husband, David, work together in their agency The Van Diest Literary Agency. Her full name is Sarah Ruth Gerke Van Diest. She’s 5’5” and cuts her hair when stress overtakes her.
She is a freelance editor (including a New York Times and USA Today bestseller), blogger (The Write Conversation) and writer for hire. Her first book releases with NavPress in 2018.
Sorry you're having a rough time. But you do still encourage others. Jesus is in you, shining through your countenance whether you see it or not. Whether you're at home, in Wal-Mart or church, people see Him in you. So while you take time to rest and fill back up, know that God in you is still reaching out through you. ☺ And that is good to know...
ReplyDeleteGood words, my kind friend. Thank you! Amen and amen.
DeleteI hope you have a wonderful day and week!
Blessings and hope,
Sarah
Another verse that has helped me...Exodus 14:14. The Lord will fight for you...
ReplyDeleteLove this, Lill. Thank you!!!
DeleteBlessings and hope,
Sarah
I'm sorry you're struggling, Sarah. I'm not feeling as you describe today but I know it all too well -- the description is spot on. Your name has been added to my journal. Praying that you have a sense of the many prayers surrounding you. (((((( HUGS )))))) (Southern hug...extra tight)
ReplyDeleteYou are a Southern blessing, my friend! Thank you so much!!!! I am honored to be added to your journal and your prayers. Our family is grateful! Much love, Sarah.
DeleteSarah,thank you for your transparency and authenticity. Your honesty encouraged me today. I so enjoyed meeting you and David at Blue Ridge this past May, and having breakfast with you all the last morning. I'm praying for you, Sarah, as you walk through this chapter of your life. If there are specifics I can be praying for, please don't hesitate to let me know. Sending a big hug!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Crickett. I guess I just didn't know what else to write. Prayers are appreciated, but even just your sentiment here is greatly valued!
DeleteBlessings and hope!
Sarah
Sarah, I will be praying for you daily. Praying peace and rest for you.
ReplyDeleteDee Dee, your words are precious. Thank you! Really. Thank you! Blessings and hope for you as you continue onward. Your life is an encouragement to me!
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