And you will
know the truth and the truth will make you free. John 8:32
Now I have to
confess, usually I can only take so much TRUTH when it comes to my writing.
And as exciting as writing conferences are, there tends to be—in my humble
opinion—a surfeit of truth going on there.
Everyone you meet
has an opinion, especially when it comes to your writing and how it should be
fixed. Add to that the late nights, adrenalin rush of meetings, and a schedule
jam packed with classes and you have a recipe for emotional disaster.
I found myself on
that very roller the first ACFW (American Christian Fiction Writers) conference
I attended in 2009. Luckily it wasn’t my first big conference, but it was by
far the largest I’d ever attended.
But two days in, on
a Saturday morning, after an unusually good night’s rest, worship was a
wonderful time of hearing from God.
The worship team
led us in several praise songs, but the one that resonated with me focused on
the freedom we have in Christ. I found myself asking God how I could hang on to
that freedom in a day I knew would be packed with unexpected highs and lows.
Frequently, in
the past, I’ve found the conference and the week following, a time of bondage.
I’ve felt trapped by expectations of others and the obvious shortcomings within
myself.
As I prayed,
asking if somehow this time could be different I felt my spirit vibrate with
God’s answer. His answer was to remind me that He gave me this story—for this
time. He didn’t choose anyone else, He chose me. And I felt that today He would
confirm His trust in me.
After the worship
time, I went straight to my 15 minute appointment with an editor. As I sat
down, I felt slightly nervous, but nothing like I have in the past. The editor
listened as I gave him a brief pitch, and then asked to see the first few pages
of the manuscript. He read for a moment and asked if I’d like editorial
feedback.
I felt myself
swallow hard—here it came—more of that truth. But I replaced my fear with a
picture of the word freedom and nodded. As he began marking up my pages and
explaining sections that needed to be cut I felt an unearthly peace. Here it
was—God’s confirmation.
The editor
stopped talking and looked at me strangely. “You’re taking this awfully well.”
That was when I
realized I had a huge grin on my face. I’m sure it must have briefly crossed
his mind that I was some sort of a nutcase or maybe he was the butt of a joke
and this wasn’t really my manuscript.
The truth was that
his revisions filled me with joy. The parts he removed were those that I’d let
others, against my better judgment, talk me into adding. When he was done, I
was left with the story exactly the way God had given it to me.
That day I found the
freedom that God’s truth brings—and even more importantly—the confidence to believe in God’s work in me and
in my ability to carry it out.
Are you concerned
about what’s He’s given you? Today I challenge you to ask for God’s
confirmation where you feel lacking. His answer will surprise you—it certainly
did me. I’d love to hear your story so . . .
Don't forget to
join the conversation!
Blessings,
Edie
Oh Edie, I can't begin to tell you how much I related to your story. While writers conferences can teach us a great deal, they can't replace that still, small voice. The same is true with contest evaluations. Thanks for sharing your experience.
ReplyDeleteYes, yes YES! It's so nice to have feedback from people, but sometimes it feels as if they are (in love and good intentions) dragging our story down their road. And I've heard God say the same to me, "This is YOUR story to write for this very time." Thanks for the encouragement to get back to it. Love you Edie!
ReplyDeleteThanks for the reminder that God has given each of us a different story He wants us to tell.
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