Finding Time to Write When You're A Caregiver

Edie here. Today I'm excited to introduce you to my long-time writing friend, Emme Gannon. Emme has been in my life for many years and her gentle encouragement has always been a breath of fresh air. I've finally convinced her to share her insight with you as a regular columnist. Her insight as she manages full-time caregiving with full-time writing is an invaluable resource. Please give her a warm TWC welcome!

Finding Time 
to Write When
You're a Caregiver
by Emme Gannon 
@GannonEmme

One more hour before I had to be home to relieve my husband’s caregiver and I’d not met my writing goal. I’d driven to the park and found a vacant bench where I tried to relax to the sound of the Reedy River as it gushed over boulders and tumbled to rocks below. I inhaled the scent of the nectar-sweet flowers edging the river and silently asked God to de-clutter my mind so that words would come. Today was to be one of those days where thoughts of duties at home would march across my mind and snag my words.

My husband’s dementia had not only imprisoned him but had the potential to wreak havoc on my writing. In the early stages of the disease, the scope of his needs overwhelmed me. I took no time for myself, knowing that caring for him was my calling.

But God had also called me to be a writer—to weave words together that had the potential to encourage and inspire the hearts of my readers. By voluntarily sacrificing my writing, I’d blasted a hole in my soul that couldn’t be filled by anything else. The lesson I’d tried to teach my children and grandchildren had been lost to me: when you are doing what God has called you to, you are energized. Exhaustion occurs when you add or take away from God’s program.

I reasoned that surely with all of my husband’s needs God desired that I sacrifice everything to care for this kind man who had loved and dedicated himself to me and our family for so many years. I was wrong on one point. The only sacrifice God was asking of me was to yield my life totally to Him and let Him decide who or what I serve in His name. Yes, the bitter cup of caregiving was indeed God’s calling, which I willingly accepted. 

However, He was not asking me to give up my writing as I’d supposed. He knew that when I write, I release my pain as well as encourage those caring for loved ones trapped in a place where they must struggle to live in a world that doesn’t speak their language. A world that isn’t safe to them. We are their lifeline and their reminder that God loves them and still has meaning for their lives. We who are called to serve these precious children of God are allowed to peek into their world and see God. As we glimpse this vision, we write, and allow others a peak also. Not to see darkness, but light—God’s light at work in a life that many see as irrelevant.

Even though I am yielded to the call of God, there are times when my heart bleeds with sadness and my tense muscles cause my body to ache with what I call soul sickness. I forget that I was not meant to bear the emotional pain of it all. It’s then that I get my husband settled with a book or a puzzle and go into my prayer closet. The bathroom is the only closed door my husband respects. So I go there and cry out to God and give back to Him the burden that He has already taken on the cross. It is there that He reminds me that I am not in control. He is. I can’t change things. He can. The end of the book has already been written by Him. It will all be good. Now go, faithful servant and love Agape—let Me love through you. Go infused by My strength. Go guided by My Spirit. It works each time. Because God is faithful.

As I gathered by things and walked to my car, I didn’t chastise myself because I didn’t achieve my word count. Instead of words for the page, God had whispered reminders of His faithfulness. Armed with that, the words would eventually come—just when I needed them.

For you writers who are also caregivers, I offer the following reminders that I use to help me get through my day:

• Don’t let guilt rob you of the joy and energy your craft gives you. The Lord is faithful and will gift you with time. Just today a neighbor blessed me with several hours to write when he took my husband for a ride and lunch.

• Don’t get caught up in the drama of your day. Go to a quiet place and listen for God’s whisper. Then go, empowered by the Spirit of the Living God. And write.

• Strive or yield? What will it be? We who often think we need hold our world together are strivers, which is a counterfeit of yielding. Striving produces stress. Yielding gives peace.

• Journal. Journaling not only helps you reach your goal of writing each day, but by exposing your true feelings, you give God the opportunity to bring His perspective and truth.

Surrender. Relax. Live out your call. Then write with passion.

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Emme Gannon is a wife, mother, and grandmother who loves to write stories that stir the heart. Her award-winning writing has appeared in Focus on the Family magazine, several anthologies, and numerous newsletters. She just completed her first novel.