So Miriam was
shut up outside the camp for seven days, and the people did not move on until
Miriam was received again. Numbers 12:15
Miriam's sin
brought the entire nation of Israel to a screeching halt for seven days while
God dealt with her and brought her back in line with His will. It must have
been devastating for Miriam to realize she was the cause of an unscheduled
stop.
How do I know
presume to know what she was feeling? Because recently I discovered I'm a
Miriam.
Have you ever
said yes to something because you thought you should, or continued serving even
though God was leading you in a different direction? In my zeal to serve God, I’d
become prideful and thought I knew better than Him. I once again ran ahead of
His will. I'd said yes to too many things and become a stumbling block to a
ministry I love.
For years I've
known that trying to do too many things at once means I wouldn't be able to do
them well. But I seem to be a slow learner, or at least someone with a poor
memory. When I pay attention to the Holy Spirit, this misguided urge stays in
check, but when I stray, life gets stressful . . . for everyone.
Fortunately, I
had the opportunity make things right by turning over some of my
responsibilities to those God had called to serve. And as I sat, listening to
them express their joy at that opportunity, it hit me how selfish I'd been. Not
only was I disobedient (bad enough) but I stood in the way of others who wanted
to serve. In effect, I brought the whole thing to a screeching halt while
God dealt with my disobedience.
It felt good to let
go of the duties I’d disobediently taken up as mine, to once again align myself
with God’s will and let Him be the only one in charge. As I relearn the lesson
of listening, the stress is receding and the joy is returning.